As I sit and watch the time go by with my daughter leaving home in just 2 days, my heart wants to stop! I am at a loss of the intense emotions I am feeling inside. I am scared for her and so very much anxious. I am trying to be strong for her but I fear I am losing that battle today. I dont want her to leave!! I want so bad just to stop time for another year or more. But I cannot. This is like the long goodbye or long see ya later. It rushes on whether or not I want it to stop. I am undone. She has so filled this house with her laughter and her joy. She has been her name to us......Joy!!

Yes, it has been a long while since I have posted. Life has been difficult but I am hanging on by the Grace of God. I am in a season of transitions......and that is very hard right now. With the onset of my youngest leaving the nest and going 9 hours away is challenging everything in me to stay not only mentally and emotionally strong but sober at the same time. This is hard. Soon my son will be in the Navy, my oldest in nursing school, and my youngest away at college in another state!! Losing all three in less than a years time....WOW! It hurts and is very sad but I am happy for them at the same time. The sadness fills every inch of my heart and I feel like someone has punched me in the stomach!! SIGH!!