Wow....its been a tough couple of weeks for me (us ) my inside ones imparticular. The depth of despair is overwhelming right now.
I wish I could just be gone but I suppose I have to stick around....God's funny sense of humor.
I dont want to be here. I dont want to trust anyone....not sure if I can anyway. I dont want to open up anymore....it is not safe I fear. Maybe I will just slip silently away into nothingness.
About Me
- Hindsfeet In Jesus
- "You are inside out and upside down...I am going to turn you out right and turn you around" These are the words my heavenly Father spoke to me four years ago as He began to reveal how broken into pieces I was. I am DID (dissociative identity disorder) and I am on a journey to become a whole person. It has been a difficult and painful process but one that I am learning how to trust and love and forgive and really live like God intended me to live. I enjoy my family and love my two yellow labs Kaira and Dakota.
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Sending safe love and very gentle hugs,
Faithful
If I slip away into nothingness, all this hard knock experience would be for nothing. Buck up Hinds... we're here to experience healing... I believe it.
Let's walk through it... together we'll get to the other side.
Buck up?? well we will see about that. I can and will express whats inside even if it is wrong....
I tried to post earlier Hinds... it didn't go through apparently?
I in my effort to be encouraging, I see that you may have taken offense. If you have I apologize.
"Buck up" for me is a phrase that makes me giggle a bit... many years ago a friend used it all the time and it helps me to remember to rise to whatever is disturbing me... I guess some things don't translate over the net or I am just not as good of an encourager as I would like to be.
I admire that you can post your feelings... I am not in a place where I feel comfortable doing that, even on the net.
All is ok....wasnt offended but for me the phrase "buck up" has meant simply to get over it. People give mixed answers for "forgetting what lies behind" but I know that right now God is healing those things I have tried to forget and get over.
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